Weak.

Sometimes I wish I could just bury myself deep underground with the few things I love and just never come back up. Which annoys me. When did I become this weak, selfish, spoiled, fucked up little asshole? I just... Sometimes I've had enough too. I have limits of how much I can take, how many emotions I can take off of others shoulders.

Who's gonna help take mine?

That's stupid. I don't need anyone's help, I can handle everything myself. It's just emotions, nothing more.
At least that's what I usually think, but...

Today was such a good day too, why did I have to turn out this way. Fucking stupid.

Everything is fucking stupid, I'm fucking stupid and not to mention a god damn mess. I've just had enough, really. Don't think I can take a whole lot more of this.

Am I

really that little reliable? It feels like people are having a tough time all around me, but there's never anything I can do to help. It's so frustrating. And it's even worse when friends are horrible at lying (plus I totally can feel the atmosphere of the conversation) and they act strange, maybe they've shown signs of being depressed for along time, and you ask if they're okay. All you get in reply is "yeah I'm fine haha" or something like that.

Uhm, I now you're not. So why lie? I wouldn't have minded if the person said "no, but I don't want to talk about it" or "let's talk about something else hehe". But lying is really the worst thing I know, no matter the reason for it...